Life

stress.
just one word to describe my feelings now.
so many things is make me stress! i need RELAX! and so many things is disgusting.

1st my score is keep going down. Crap. i can't even tell my mom about my score, but, i'm sure soon or later she'll know about it. i know is better tell her now, but i can't. i' scare it will make my mom feel sad, feel disappointed and yaah.. i remember in my graduation i said 'mom. i promise to make it (my score) better' but NOW!?
i really wants to make my mom happy, proud but it's so hard :'(
mom i am sorry. but you must believe me i really wanna make you happy and proud! just wait! i will and i can. I LOVE YOU <33 even sometime you make me crazy!! I still LOVE YOU <3

2nd lumba. i don't why i keep fall in love with him. even so many tears i give to him but i still love him and i still WANTS HIM! my friends said that i acted like a fool but i can't do anything i love him. although sometime i say 'ohh O look handsome' ' tik, look that person. he's so handsome right?' but seriously i can't remove lumba on my mind -__-. i tell my self to forget him because it just make me feel tired and i always thinking ‘he is not good for me’ but it still doesn’t work  anyone get any idea? Want to know a secret? Honestly why i keep falling love it just because him self! Once i almost forget about him, he will give a sign -_- he always give me a glance and when our eyes are meet he will gaze to me. See? I can’t understand what he mean. So, yes i keep fallen for him. 